Author: Kat Lee
Fandoms: Supergirl/Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Character/Pairing: Maggie/Alex, Willow/Tara
Challenge/Prompt: slashthedrabble 499: Binge
Word Count: 540
Date Written: 6 September 2018
Disclaimer: All characters within belong to their rightful owners, not the author, and are used without permission.
“That’s stupid,” Maggie groused.
“What?” Alex asked, blinking in surprise.
“Letting magic come between them. If they really loved each other, they wouldn’t care so much about the other magic.”
“I don’t know,” Alex said slowly, nibbling popcorn. “I mean, I can see Willow’s point. It’s kind of like if you gave me this really big gun and then said I couldn’t fire it, because if I fired it, we’d be through.”
“I’d never do that,” Maggie said, leaning up against her girlfriend.
“I know you wouldn’t. But Tara’s afraid. And she’s more afraid of what Willow will become if she keeps firing that gun than she is of anything else. She’s scared of losing her -- “
“So she threatens her that she’ll leave her?”
Alex shrugged. “She’s desperate. She’s hoping Willow loves her more than the magic.” She looked down into her girlfriend’s deep, dark eyes. “She’s hoping,” she adds softly, letting go of a few popcorn kernels back into their shared bowl, “that she loves her more than anything else.”
“Well, that’s never going to be a problem for us,” Maggie decided determinedly. She reached up and wrapped a hand around the right side of Alex’s face. “There’s nothing in this world I’ll ever love more than you, Danvers.”
She didn’t wait for Alex to respond, didn’t give her a chance as she kissed her long and deep, the passion of her kiss proving the promise of her words. They’d soon forgotten the program they were binge watching as they made love on the couch, but six months later, Alex stood watching the woman she’d thought she’d love forever walk out her door. She trembled from head to toe though it didn’t show on the outside. Her hands balled into tight fists, her fingernails biting into the palms of her hands.
Six months ago, she hadn’t been able to imagine herself ever loving anyone, except maybe her sister, Kara, more than she loved Maggie. She would have done anything for her. But now she can’t picture a future with her because Maggie doesn’t want the one other thing in this world which Alex desires as much as she does their union. Their love isn’t perfect, and it isn’t everything after all, just as Tara wasn’t everything for Willow in the end.
Alex sank to her knees after the door shut. She bit her lips, drawing blood, to keep from sobbing aloud. Maggie was doing what she’d asked after all. She was leaving because she could no more change her mind about parenthood than Alex could. Just as Willow couldn’t bring Tara back, Alex can’t bring Maggie back, not and have the future she desires. She can’t have that future, she realizes, finally breaking out sobbing. It’s Maggie or a child, and she’s made her choice.
When her despair finally began to lift just a little, Alex reached out and called for the one person who would be able to talk her down. Just as Xander had gone to Willow and kept her, with mere words and love, from destroying the world, Kara would keep Alex from destroying herself during the next few nights. But again like Willow and Tara, nothing would ever be the same for Alex or Maggie.