Author: Kat Lee
Fandom: Walker, Texas Ranger
Challenge/Prompt: beattheblackdog 108: Badge
Word Count: 659
Date Written: 17 April 2018
Disclaimer: All characters within belong to their rightful owners, not the author, and are used without permission.
Every morning, she takes a moment to consider her life. She still says prayers -- she grew up in the church, after all, and some habits are hard to break --, but they’re quick and rarely spoken aloud these days. Nonetheless, there’s one quiet moment every morning where she thinks about where she’s come from, all she’s endured, and all she still hopes her future will bring her. It’s the moment when she picks up her badge from the small table beside her bed and pins it on her shirt.
During that moment, as she runs the important piece of silverish metal through her fingers, Syd feels both anxious and hopeful. She knows there will be more killings today, more murders to solve, and more close calls. Every day lately brings that to Dallas and her team, but she can’t help but to smile as she considers that team. She’s finally a part of something really big. She’s a part of something of which both her parents would be proud.
She has a team. She has friends, who are more than friends. Truthfully, she has the family she’s yearned for for years but which she had given up on once before. She has brothers and a sister who care for her, and she has a man she loves with all her heart, even if she doesn’t dare to tell him. She wonders if she’ll ever be brave enough to speak those words aloud. She can wear the badge of a hero, save lives, and face bullets every day, but letting Francis Gage know what he really means to her is something for which even she still lacks the courage.
But she will be with him today. Today and every day, as they wear their badges and fight on the right side of the law, she’ll be with him. She’ll be right beside him, keeping him safe and knowing he’s watching over her, too. They have each other’s backs. He is her dearest friend, her closest confidante, and the thought that building a romantic partnership with him could shatter everything else is the very thing that keeps her from making a move in that direction, even when he’s constantly teasing her about the feelings they both know they have for each other.
She has everything she could ever want, Syd reflects, everything but a love that is spoken of. She still has his love. Keeping him as a friend is the only way to make certain she never loses it. She pins her badge on, proud of what it represents but even prouder of everything it’s given her. She glances in the mirror one last time and sees a smiling, beautiful, confidante, and capable woman before heading out her door and on to work, on to him.
She’ll lay her life on the line again today. She’ll help to keep the few innocents in a bustling city full of crime safe. But most of all, she’ll be with him. She’ll be working side by side with him, laughing with him, being touched by him in more ways than one, and keeping watch over him. She thinks of what his sister asked her the last time they saw her. She asked her to keep her brother safe. Sydney, of course, promised her that she would, but what she didn’t tell her, what she’ll never tell a soul, is that she’ll always keep Gage safe. She’ll keep him safe, because without him, everything else she has in this world doesn’t matter a damn.
He greets her with a smile. She wishes she could kiss those dimples on his charming lips, but she knows better. He teases her, and she shoots back at him, her lips even faster than her gun hand. Yet, even as she does so, she’s smiling radiantly, because here with him, she has everything she’s always wanted. With Gage, she has everything, and her life is fulfilled at last.