Author: Kat Lee
Fandom: Lost Girl
Challenge/Prompt: femslash100 562: Search
Word Count: 250
Date Written: 2 September 2017
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I’ve been searching my whole life for someone. I know it’s cliche, but it’s still true. My family was never big on love. I’ve always been the weird one out everywhere. But now I know you, and you’re even weirder than me.
I know you only see me as a friend. That’ll probably never change. I’m not gonna do anything to encourage you to see me as anything more. Romance ruins a good friendship, and I’d rather have you in my life as my best friend than not to have you in it. The Fey definitely aren’t gonna make it easy for us to stay friends; they’d probably kill me straight out if we ever kissed. And I’m not going to come between you and your wolf, or you and your doctor even though I’m totally Team Dyson.
But it doesn’t mean I don’t wonder. It doesn’t mean I don’t sometimes listen to the sounds you make and wish I was the one causing you to make them. But I’m no fool. I know I’m not strong enough to hold you even if I tried, but I can hold you as a friend. I can love you as a friend, and you’ll let me.
At least I’ve got you in my life. I’m not alone any more; you say I’ll never have to be alone again. I’m gonna keep you to that, Bo. That’ll be enough. You’ll be enough, even if we never so much as kiss. I’m not alone.